So what brought me to this slap in the face conclusion? Rocco, my nine year old, of course. I believe our children come into our lives to teach us many lessons we may have missed in this lifetime or another. Earlier today, Rocco and I were discussing how he needs to “let things go.” (I know you’ve read this before in “Put the Girl Down”) He is still struggling with this and it seems on some days to get worse. As I was talking with him and explaining the importance of how we choose to let others affect us and how to walk away when someone is trying to bring us down, I realized an incident that happened to me recently.
I always thought I had this “happiness bubble” around me, where nothing could bring me down. Friends and family ask me all the time, “Do you ever get upset?” My answer 98% of the time, “nope.” So, what made this bubble pop? Me. I could blame it on my kids, my husband, the full moon or my mid-cycle. Up until my talk with Rocco, that is exactly what and who I was blaming it on. Despite things said or unsaid, hurtful or unhurtful, I need to decide if I want to live happily or crappily. Last week was a major life lesson for me and I have realized how valid it is to move on, let go, and just be. I still love my kids, my husband, the full moon and my mid-cycle. (Well maybe not the cycle)
I am not trying to run away from emotions or be a heartless rock. I am choosing how to move forward, forgive and live! Each day will be different for all of us. Just stop and think of how you want to feel at the end of the day. If it is sadness, pity or blaming others for the way you feel, then good luck with that! If it is to feel free and not allow others comments or actions to control you then GO FOR IT! Feeling good is why we are here and it is what our source wants……focus on that and only that……Be happy and remember like John Lennon says, “All you need is love.”
We are all hypocrites at times, and it is okay……….Just forgive yourself and try harder the next day….Peace