Most of my writings are pretty similar. In fact before I started typing this one, I noticed my last one in March is also about moments and how we need to cherish them. So, if you are completely bored about reading happy things with some minor struggles or hurdles then stop what you are doing and click on the X in the right hand corner.....Oh no! Please don't! I am just kidding. When my questions to myself become overwhelming and I cannot stop my brain from coming to a halt, I then get anxious and resentful. I think I have felt this way for quite some time now. I haven't written anything for a long time. I haven't even given myself a moment. When I get excited about a moment possibly coming my way lately, I have chosen to keep my brain on busy mode instead of being mode. I am not accusing anyone, pointing fingers or throwing myself a pity party, honest. I am just trying to figure my thoughts out on paper and this is how I roll with some Sandi therapy. lol Mikey was at work, Rocco at the beach and Avery was at soccer tryouts. OMG! What will I do? I knew I needed to get to the gym at some point and that was my main focus. I then went upstairs to my room and looked over at my pile of happy books. I grabbed one of my fave's, Oneness, by Rasha. I opened it and went over some things I had highlighted in the past years. I then went to the inside of the back cover and noticed I had written a few notes to myself as well;
* Each day I will do something kind for someone.
*Each morning and evening I will say thank you and give appreciation for this "Human" experience.
*Each moment I will focus on happiness, peace and harmony.
*I will help guide those in sadness, but know I cannot change their ways. Only they can choose to be happy or sad on their journey.
*I will send positive love and light to those around me....especially those who I allow my EGO to take control of.
As I looked at each of these, I felt a bit of sadness. I seemed to have forgotten not all but some of feel good tasks. I immediately then looked all around me and noticed the pink flowers on the Rose of Sharon bushes, the green leaves on the trees and how the sun light glowed upon them. I looked straight out to the calm water with a sporadic wind that created small ripples. Fish were coming to the surface and making circles, while dragonflies were hovering over those circles sharing bugs with the fish. I suddenly noticed that I had some brilliant purple lupine growing on the edge of the pond and while taking all of these beautiful sights in, I wrote in my Oneness book, "This moment......Thank You." When things don't make sense, I need to stop and breathe and not only thank this moment but BE this moment as well. Try and find what moment you would like to thank. Nature, sunlight, a strangers smile or act of kindness they display? How about a quiet moment? (love those....hee hee). Besides all of those moments I notice my son's gorgeous eyes and my daughter's radiant smile and that adorable little mole on her chin. My husbands sense of humor and nice booty also are things that make me smile.lol
I am going to hang my feel good tasks in my room so I can see them always! By being consistent and reading them each day, I will eventually rid my anxiety and resent. By practicing them I will immediately feel fulfilled and that is what I crave, fulfillment and being present. Writing this was so flipping therapeutic! Those of you who may write or soak in nature know exactly what I am talking about. Thank you pen, Thank you paper, Thank you nature and THANK YOU MOMENT! Now that my soul feels energized and lighter I can now work on my heart and muscles.....It is time to hit the gym!