We are taught to give and serve with no questions or judgement, right? So why is it when I am driving home from work approaching the lights off of Exit 1, I get complete agida as soon as I see someone holding a sign asking for any kind of help: aka $$$$? I so wish my EGO could shrivel up and disappear when this feeling sets in. A few years ago when it was 1 or 2 people I would give a dollar, or sometimes a water or banana. Heck one time a man was holding up a sign that he could not feed his family so I went to Hannaford and picked up a 5 lb bag of spaghetti for him. When I opened my window and handed it to him he did not seem enthused about the donation. I noticed if I gave a water or that banana one day, the next day it would be lying on the post where the person was standing. As you can imagine I would feel a sense of sadness or unappreciated. Did these people who were in need only want money? What were they using it for? Was it even my business? My struggle was frustrating......
Frustrating because I would get so angry each day seeing the same people begging. The next frustration was how disappointed I was in MYSELF to experience these unhappy thoughts and feelings of another human being who I am supposed to be one with. Who was I to judge? Who am I telling myself all these stories of negative things that they may or may not have been doing with the money they were collecting? I have now taken a different approach of how I place my thoughts when I am at the red light. If I am right next to the person I no longer ignore them and now make eye contact, roll my window down and say hello. I ask them about their day if time allows. I have asked what they used to do for work, collect their cell number and hopefully someday will be able to connect them with someone who can give them a job. The times when I am not right near them, I send a silent blessing to them instead of getting all icky inside. I am choosing to do this now, instead of feeling the frustration of having to give them money or judging them.
So here is my universal "Be The Change Challenge" to each of you.....If you also struggle like I sometimes do and do not know how to put these ill feelings to rest, say hello to them, smile at them, have a brief conversation with them or just send them a silent blessing of love, abundance and peace. I know this blessing makes me feel more joy inside rather than assuming what they need the money for or getting frustrated because they are not working. We do not know what their story or personal struggle is that they are dealing with right now. So let's take our judgments and use them for a better cause.....the more people doing this will allow more goodness and energy flowing in a positive direction for them......WHO'S WITH ME?
REMEMBER, BE KIND....FOR EVERYONE YOU MEET IS FIGHTING A BATTLE YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT.....Peace.