The 2015 New Hampshire winter has particularly left me with some major cabin fever. It seems I have been finding myself coming home after work, possibly hitting the gym depending on the frigidness, coming home to make dinner and plopping myself in front of the "conscience Grim Reaper". (aka the television). While I am doing this my hubby and 2 kids are upstairs in their own worlds playing Mind Crap, Wizards 101 and Drakensan. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy my alone time, I am just going freaking crazy being confined in my house! So finally after at least 4 weeks of this monotony I told the family I was heading out to my "escape" place and drove a mile down the street hoping for an epiphany this time around.
Walking into my never-never land I took in the satisfying happy aroma of the hundreds of thousands books I was about to embrace. You know that smell and feeling I am talking about. I felt a wave of independence and freedom knowing I had the evening to dive into what I truly loved. I grabbed a heavy wooden chair, pulled it over to my corner and placed my water and keys on it like I was reserving a parking spot in Boston this winter. lol I walked over to my favorite wall with the Spirituality books....I crave it this topic. I cannot stop learning or thinking about it. I aim and strive to be a master at it! Now, don't go thinking I want to preach it, or be one of those shove it down your throat type of peeps. The only master I want to be is the master of my own self. I have been reading and studying this stuff for almost 10 years now and I still am a work in progress. Just reading it excites me and sends me to the happiest place I can be. As I was scanning along anticipating what knowledge I would saturate myself with tonight I saw a larger book that grabbed my eye. I believe in the truth of every second/minute of my day is exactly intended for a purpose or lesson. I placed my hands on this book and already got excited about the title.
"Science of the Mind" kept me enthralled for what seemed to be 30 minutes but turned out to be 2 hours! My time at Barnes and Nobles goes as fast as warp speed and when I leave my heart sinks a bit. Now comes the part that I struggle with,(it is my own struggle and I do not blame anyone else my but my confused conscience). Do I buy it? The book was only $22, and seemed worth a million to me.....Of course I should, right? Nope, the guilt comes to me with questions/comments saturating my brain. Will Mike think it is a waste of money? Should I look on my Kindle instead? Will it be cheaper there? Oh, but the pages and binding smell so fabulous! On and on I went until my guilty belief made me place the book back on the shelf. When I got home I went right to my Kindle and researched more about the book. Honestly, when I say I crave this shit and take it to another level. I read some reviews and most were good and a few mixed about the Kindle version not being the true guide I fell in love with at B & N. I went to bed with 2 things on my mind; I am in a place right now where I need to read this and practice and when I left B & N the other night I DID leave with an epiphany and I was going to follow through.
A couple of days later I picked up my Kindle again. It was Saturday morning and Mike was up north, and my little man was sleeping soundly next to me. Once again, I had some quiet time to embrace what I loved. I came across another version of this book and read the sample. I took notes like mad in my notebook and when I was done it felt like I had a epiphany climax!
Why? Every once in awhile we all connect with something we come face to face with. I don't know why but when I read a quote/verse my heart felt full of love and truth. "When praying, one needs to already BELIEVE & know it is done." (Jesus, no really, Jesus said that). Seriously? I have read and own a shit ton of books, The Secret, Course of Miracles, Dale Carnegie books, Wayne Dyer books, Pam Grout and many, many more. I can see these books as a gradual climb up a big ass mountain peak which I forever grateful. Who the hell knows? Some of these books may have put the same quote as I stated above. I could of read that quote dozens of times, but clearly it did not sink in until this moment. How simple of a statement is this? One would think, but the majority of us are filling our conscience with useless information or worse than that, absolutely nothing!
This is a beginning of my newest and latest journey. "The Belief Experiment"---- A science based and mind altering adventure. The Science of Mind states we need to rid ourselves with the "old traditional thought" of our religious ancestors. Hell? Nope. Material objects and guilt? Nope. God is within all of us and we all carry and possess the same power we have believed for generations that God only had. Jesus was just a dude who conquered the mind and used it with his God like possession. He wanted to teach us how we can create good or bad ourselves with the power of our own mind. Our minds once reclaimed can bring us health, abundance, joy, peace and prosperity. All we need to do is believe.
As I was reading, the author shared some mantra's. The first I was elated with and want to share it with all of you. My belief experiment will start each day with this mantra. "All belief from fear, guilt, anxiety, disappointment and failure, etc. is erased from my mind. (You can fill in what your hang ups or negative thoughts may be). My goodness! None of this is rocket science and it's only purpose is to release all of your yucky blucky's from your mind. How freeing is that?
The next mantra/guideline is a bit longer but I have to share and who knows? It may make one of you feel joy or peace. "I am forever supplied with everything good, forever happy, radiant, well and complete. This word establishes wholeness and harmony throughout my entire being and in everything I do, say or think. My life represents that which knows no limitation, is forever manifesting complete joy and freedom through me. Spirit daily provides me with everything necessary to my happiness, to my wholeness and to my complete self expression. My whole being responds to joy, peace, to truth and to abundance. Only that which is good can enter my experience. I know that believing this word, health, happiness and prosperity immediately spring into action and manifest through me. I ACCEPT IT. I BELIEVE IT. IT IS DONE. I KNOW!
After I completed my sample of this Kindle piece, I put it down and knew my life was going to only change for the better. I pulled out my angel cards asked is this my next journey? I got the pray card(go figure), the higher education card(yup, I will be continuing with this higher education), and the forgiveness card.( I am forgiving myself for all of those years I thought with no belief and was unconscious most of the time).lol I then asked for a sign from above, (usually it is my mom) for some strength and guidance with my new adventure. I hopped out of bed filled with so much love and joy in my heart. I went downstairs to fold some laundry and reached down to move a magazine basket that was close to the register/heating vent. Right there underneath was a beautiful white feather(one of my mom's, "Here I am Sandi"). I picked it up and took a picture of it, just because.
I decided that 2/28/15 is my beginning to my Belief Experiment. I decided to buy that $22 masterpiece! I hope you enjoy this journey with me and take some joy or peace with you as well. Here's to believing! I ACCEPT! I BELIEVE IT! IT IS DONE! I KNOW IT!
Start today with a prayer........wait.....hold on.....Remember before you send your prayers out to the universe you must know with 100% conviction it's already been taken care of and has occurred! Good Luck! I would love for anyone to share your experience with The Belief Experiment!