I want to write a book and have it published. I want to have multiple articles published in magazines. I crave this! Is it happening right now? Nope.(not yet anyway)
I want to help guide others in finding their strengths so they can do the same for others and so on. Is it occurring at this moment? Once again, a big fat, NO!
Now let me share some details about myself that I have total belief in and without a doubt know there is no way I am lacking. I am a rock star mom and wife! I am positive and know I will always be strong, fit and healthy. I know I am good at helping others achieve fitness and health as well. The only difference that I can imagine is the belief factor between this paragraph and the one above. So what gives? What is creating my disbelief in being a writer, spiritual life coach as well as always being good and kind? I struggle with some type of self doubt that must be being created by a silly fear somewhere deep inside. For instance what is going to actually happen when I become that writer and life coach? What happens when my belief in it is as strong as my other beliefs as a mom and wife? Will things change considerably? Thinking of all the work that needs to happen to make this all come to fruition is super intimidating. I know that the first step needs to be taken asap as all I do most days is ponder all of this.
During the times when I think of all of the exciting things I want to accomplish I get a heavy feeling inside and I honestly feel like I am going to erupt like Mount St. Helens. Next, I get this "good vibe"type of feeling and my heart literally has a "pang" in it. I know, sounds weird right? I feel this each time I think about writing and I always get the same message.....I hear a voice and it says, "WRITE! Just freaking WRITE"! A few moments later after all of those physical vibes, I get completely lost or distracted with a chore I need to complete or an errand I have to do. Immediately then, I lose that heavy good vibe heart pang. After awhile I get so completely frustrated that all of this time may have been wasted on doing nothing but chores, errands and other things that keep me away from my passion. The good news is the pang returns!
In my heart I do know I will not give up with this dream that gets put on the back burner more than I would like. All I need is first steps, consistency and follow up each and every day. I suppose that is not all I need; belief would have to take place first and foremost. I need to not let anything get in my heart or head and know I can do this. I put myself through college, married my best friend, raised 2 outstanding children, work with passion at my job as a trainer and I did this with 100% belief and faith. I knew as a kid I would be happily ever after and that never left my heart. Once I master the goodness and kindness I know is within myself I will be lead to wherever I want to go.
Here is my new "To Do" list that I will begin with each and every day:
*Wake up with a simple statement of" Thank you".(for everything)
*Tell myself I am a rock star writer.
*Take 5 minutes and be present.
*Write something for 5 minutes.
*Give, do or say something nice to 2 people each day.
*Step out of my comfort zone each day...say hi to a stranger, reach out to a publisher or editor...etc
*Community service 1x per month.
*Before I fall asleep each night already know and get those "feels" of having a article submitted for publication. I will feel that excitement by imagining a phone call or getting an email sent to me saying "YES, we love your work"! Then close my eyes with a huge smile on my face....that will definitely get me that vibe feeling heart pang!
I am doing a 90 day experiment. I am simply doing my "to do" list. That's right.....I am simply doing this for 90 days straight and will be sharing my success with all of you. I will post on this site 3 times a week and keep you posted on the vibes, thoughts and all of my highs. I initially was going to share my lows but this would prevent success if I let any lows get in my heart and head, right? So sorry, screw you lows! My low's will be turned into building blocks to make my success that much stronger. I would love to hear about your "to do" list and how you stay on top of your universe game. Also, how do you let the art of allowing to help you succeed? What does that mean? Well, anything that creates "ajada" within your energy flows needs to be eliminated. Especially current events, news programs, family strain which usually means you not agreeing or liking how someone may do/not do/ or say something you do not like. Stay focused on your "pie"in the sky and stop letting others circumstances get in your way. If you do not have a to do list, please, please use mine! Let's do this 90 day challenge together! What is something you have been thinking or feeling non stop about? What gets you excited? What gives you those Friday feels every day? When you set goals in motion, you also need a 30, 60 and 90 day plan of action. Yes, I have my to do list, but now that I am starting what will I accomplish in 30 days? I will submit 5 of my writing pieces to magazine/internet publications. I wrote it, so now I will follow through with it. What will you do in 30 days? I am so excited to start this challenge and will be checking in on Wednesday, July 13th. I hope all of you will jump on with me! Please let me know or if you are not comfortable with that do it on your own and KICK ASS!