So let's change the atmosphere a bit and not be on the morbid side as much. On 12/31/91, I was in a friends New Year's Eve wedding. They got married at exactly 12 am, and for those of you who know me well, know that I am NOT a night person. Anyway, I cannot recall what time I got home that morning but I do remember that I was supposed to go into work that day and was dreading it! I was exhausted and came very close to calling in. The only thing that stopped me was I loved my manager and I did not want to leave her hanging. So on that New Years Day, my managers boyfriends family walked into our store to say hello. On that day I met my best friend, my "soul" mate, my comedian and the best damn guy ever! You guessed it, my wonderful husband, Michael. Was it an accident that I didn't call in? Hell no! Things happened exactly the way they were supposed to.
So whether good, bad, sad, or indifferent, everything plays out just as it should. Sometimes I still wonder about people who have only come into my life for a brief moment. It could of been a hello, a smile or even a simple glance. There is something significant about those brief meetings and I may never understand it. There are people who do not agree with my reasoning at all in this matter. They state, "Sandi, you have not lost a parent, spouse or child." They have a valid point and I respect that immensely. My belief system has grown so much these past 20 years and I have become less afraid of "the end." I have less fear of losing someone I love. I replaced my fear with gratitude and appreciation of their time with me that I got to experience. Whether it be my parents, my husband or even one of my kids that I lose someday, I will choose love and not anger. I will not be mad at God, and I know that they came into my life for a reason and not by accident. Now with all of that mentioned, I will grieve, cry, and miss them terribly. But I know their leaving me or coming into my life was not by accident. Nothing happens on accident, absolutely nothing.........So, if it happened, then guess what? It was supposed to happen.......Peace!