When I was in elementary school I never really thought much about what I would be or become like a lot of my friends. I knew I did not want to be a teacher (like most of my little friends), nor did I ever dream of being a doctor. I did not dream of becoming a professional athlete or even a movie star. Around the age of 14 or so I thought I may want to be a makeup artist, but honestly I feel like by this time in my life everyone had a dream of what they wanted to be when they grew up, so I had to come up with something. A makeup artist sounded kind of glamorous, right? I did not even go to college right away. I was paying for it myself so I really wanted to make sure whatever I was going for I really felt passionate about. I knew I loved to exercise. I knew I had a crap load of energy and I knew I loved being around people. So at the age of 19 I had a strong inkling about my search and what I wanted to be when I grew up. I graduated from college with a degree in Sports Management and a specialization in Health and Fitness. I was eager to find a job in this field and did in Boston! I was pumped and could not wait to begin this journey.
Well after a year of living this 8 hour a day, 5 days a week passion I was burnt and lost the love of helping others get healthy. What was wrong with me? People go to school/college and whatever their major is they stick with, right? I know teachers, doctors, lawyers and mailmen that stayed at their job for over 30 or 40 years. Even though it seemed like a freaking lifetime I really thought that was my path with fitness. I beat myself up for a short time, got married, had kids, several different part time jobs in all different areas and moved on.
I am now almost a part of the 4…0… club and in the past 5 years have gotten back to trying to find my passion. What I have learned is, I can have more than one passion and I have stopped searching and just decided to breathe and go with what feels good. “How may I serve” is a mantra I love to practice and though it does not happen all the time, I still do my best to try and live it. I am still passionate about helping others exercise and encouraging others about health and nutrition. I am also passionate about writing and know these two passions may teeter from time to time, but will always be instilled within me.
I have a new mantra to stop searching and listen within and just be. Try this and see how much more peaceful you will become. Also try and remember that if you are stressed or unhappy with your current situation or career you do have a choice to change things. Try not to feel obligated or the “financial guilt responsibility.” So many of us who are the “breadwinners” of our family are stuck (not really, it just feels this way) because of this situation. Go within and feel what makes you SPARKLE AND SHINE. If you are a mailman or mail lady and are about to have a nervous breakdown each morning before you hop into your truck, you are not doing others or yourself any great benefit of “sticking” it out. Move beyond the pension check and do what you love. When you are 90 or so I guarantee you will smile at the simple things rather than the retirement check.
The search is over…listen….Just be, and do what makes your heart smile…….Love to all……Peace